Over half a lifetime ago, I committed suicide in Aspen, Colorado.
I have always and still do suffer from depression, and I had reached my limit and carefully planned my death.
I planned an overdose on methaqualone(Quaaludes were popular then). The problem with Methaqualone was that to take enough to OD, you couldn't do it all at once, or you would become violently ill and vomit.
I set a timer so it would keep waking me up, until I had taken enough to kill me.
To make a long story short, I was found and taken to Aspen Hospital, where I died and was pronounced dead. I didn't attempt suicide. It was successful. I died. I was dead, and then, to everyone's surprise and dismay, I wasn't.
This is the exciting part, my experience between those two moments.
I found myself traveling in a black tunnel or realm surrounded by what seemed to be tortured souls that were more like red outlines than solid beings, and then there was the bright light at the end of the tunnel. I was ready, and I wanted to go!
When I reached this incredibly bright light, I felt God place his hands on my face and close my eyes, and say, “You have to go back. I am not finished with you.”
“And just like that,” I was alive in a room with freaked out people around me who began running out of the room.
There is a bunch more to the story that isn’t relevant here. But that experience set me on a path of finding what I must do to complete my journey.
When I turned seventy-five and still fighting depression I started taking supplements that helped my aging mind and body.
I was waking up every morning tired and feeling like it wasn’t worth it. Life was not worth all the time. All those years and I was still feeling lost and without a purpose.
I was complaining to friend about my feelings, who said to me,
“Steven you are happiest when you are helping other people.”
I had some success online but I always was more than a little challenged by the technology and what it took me 10 plus years to be able to do.
I then watched it all disappear as Facebook put me out of business overnight.
This meant more financial problems and more depression.
Then I met Ryan Allaire, who at half my age is now my mentor and has helped me to find a way to feel fulfilled by helping seniors to find an easy on ramp to success online, helping seniors, feel better and make Senior Supplemental +Income, SS+I.